Adulting with Burnout

To continue, from something we left behind.
To add, to something we have already seen.
It only shows me, it is not the same no matter the similarities.
To have everything or to feel you have everything.
A big lie, we told ourselves.
A big plan, with no map.

Just an illusion, that It will be the same.
When none of it was,
When none of it was meant to be.

Killed all luck that did not exist.
Killed hope that was, just to wait for luck to strick.
Killed the light at the end of tunnels that had pride in red.

Just to move at the speed of light, just to prove nothing to no one
Includes a empathetic soul and a perfect mind
Includes a world that I might not actually get
Includes a broken childhood and need to grow up faster then sound that I heard call my name

I know, I burnt the last candle when I don’t feel tidied anymore, just joy of zero interest to feel nothing
I know I was overdue to have a sit at the big table when I stopped feeling exhausted at the end of 15 k steps a day
I know I don’t belong, when I feel happiness in sleep
I know I have bridges to build with sticks scattered Infront of my smarter path