Calosha Gomes

Nothing beats risking what I worked for. The whole year of dedication was about to crash and burn.
I pulled the plug before I could get sucked in. I stepped aside before losing my whole future. I chose my safety before choosing how much I cared. I stopped caring to protect my present and my future.

Backspaced till I want no closure. Hope replaced by fear. Halfway to heaven at the coldest temperature.

Not missing a single beat. No controls, no regrets, and only living. Leaving places that have me feeling not so safe.

Doesn’t mean there is any hate, doesn’t mean I wanted to stay either.
Logical more than emotion. Intentional more than on a whim. Doesn’t mean I didn’t care. Doesn’t mean there is anything left.

Waste of my time is not okay. The waste of my headspace is even more not okay. Doesn’t mean I didn’t try there. I focused real hard to look past the disrespect and risk I was put through.