Calosha Gomes

I focused on our tomorrow
and today I am forced to focus on my today.
Had me dreaming, I could be anything I wanted.
Now, I question why I even tried to be me.
I wished I had been anything but me.

Now, I regret moving to a strange land.
Now, I regret pressing apply.
All these regrets and only one hope,
I have my right now, to be my own person.

Overwhelmed by all that help in a strange land.
I learnt everything strange just to be me,
and now I regret ever having spoken up.

Ever heard of self-sabotage,
well I am the queen of that today.
I just couldn’t have me being helped by strangers.

Never had help from a familiar,
so when it came from someone from a strange land,
I went into complete shock
and dropped myself off the cliff I had climbed for
one year.

None of it was easy,
not the climb,
not the fall,
and especially not landing on a hard floor.