Calosha Gomes

I close my eyes and see green and smile in the distance; it’s not that far. I know I can walk closer to it. And when I touch it, I smile — it is my own shadow.
This green has flowers all over, and it’s just me running, chasing nothing, just running and laughing as the sun shines just enough, not burning my beautiful peace in the moment.

This feels good, and I can live in this green with my own smile forever.

This sober dream in my vivid imagination is so real, so kind, and this hug from my own shadow overwhelms my always-in-pain heart.

My meditation in this place has me holding my own heart as my voice fades away from this reality; I become louder in my head. I know this beauty is what I am chasing — I am chasing green and my own smile, because nothing ever mattered. I can’t imagine losing it over anything.